I am still learning to trust
Forty-Eight years ago I made a decision that became a secret for almost forty-four years. I decided to not trust in matters of the heart. That decision (theoretically) prevented me from having my feelings hurt.
It also prevented me from experiencing love.
Thirty-Six years ago I made a decision that became a secret for the next thirty-two years. I decided that my instincts could not be trusted. I became analytical. I only trusted my thinking. That decision caused me to overthink everything.
It prevented me from living life in the moment.
When the light-bulb finally went on almost four years ago, it was as if I awakened from a deep sleep.
- What was unconscious suddenly became conscious.
- What was hidden suddenly was clearly visible.
- What had been controlling suddenly became much less powerful.
Today I awake every day and remind myself to trust.
- Trust my instincts.
- Trust my heart.